Monday, October 12

Late night

Sleepless. I don't think I'll ever renounce feeling confessional at 2am, even if it's only my blog that will listen to my insomniac ravings. I had a good jam session today. I haven't felt this alive for awhile - maybe it's that feeling alive requires copious amounts of amplified noise. At least I can make some on my own. I wonder how people without guitars get by.

I've got 'someday my prince will come' on. It's a nice tune - and to have Miles put his inchoate siren over the changes is almost too much of a good thing.

I'm flying to australia in a week. I need to get my strength together. Goal here is not to come back in a box.

I wonder where all my friends are.
Maybe I need to stop practicing and get out of my room once in awhile. I am starting to feel the effects of social awkwardness acutely. It will be too late soon.
:(

adam

Friday, October 9

Twilight

It's not the Absolutely Terrible Novel I was hoping it'd be.
Yes, I must note - I have read it. And it's not that I've gone over to the dark side or anything - I accredit the reading to boredom, which shall become the excuse for all evil deeds great and petty.

And this will no doubt void my membership of the Singapore chapter of Auteurs Anonymous. But for what it tries to be, which isn't much, it's not a bad novel at all. It's not Ishiguro for sure, but nobody wants it to be - and Meyer manages somehow to make a vampire story that's well sort of interesting and skips lightly past all the unnecessary emo that the genre's often burdened with.

So there, all you Writers and Poets and Critics and people who Know About Literature, poo on you all. I liked Twilight.

adam

Saturday, October 3

Yo La Tengo!

They've been a bit hit-or-miss with my tastes but the hits are solid ones, and certainly rank pretty high up there in my pantheon of Great Songs. Of slightly more import : They're married. And they're good enough to wield that singularly un-hip social institution like the great electrified warhammer of Rock, smashing aside assiduously, snidely single doubters.

Read: Sugarcube ("Whatever you want from me, that's what I wanna do for you, sweeter than a drop of blood on a sugarcube") What's more married than that? And what is more rock and roll?

Read: Mr. Tough (Hey Mr. Tough, don't you think we've suffered enough?) ("We'll leave our worries in the corner, leave them in a big big pile")
Really, the pile doesn't go away for people living together. But the way they deal with it is rock and roll in every way that matters.

Georgia and Ira Kaplan seem to have incorporated a uniquely scathing form of domestic bliss in their personal myth, and I find it extremely compelling. If I ever get married, my kids are going to be named after them.

adam

Wednesday, September 30

Revolver

The Beatles - Revolver

I will not make pronouncements or judgements because I am not worthy. I am less than the dust on the soles of his sandals, I am not fit even to listen and I am only allowed because of his magnanimous grace. In times to come they will say he was only human but in the glory of the spectacle I can only see majesty, purity and perfection.

adam

ONCE AND FOR ALL: THE SECRET TO WRITING

Distance, indifference, dispassion. Writing and music may portray emotions but may not contain: emotions in the writing process should only be accessible as a product not as an ingredient because they shut down the multi level process that art requires. To give way to emotions is to lose coherence, structure, and above all true appreciation - it is the mind that stores the details, not the heart, and the mind must recreate the details to recreate the response in the heart.

adam

Horehound

The Dead Weather - Horehound

Yes, I did actually go out and buy it and I don't regret it at all. The first thing I thought was 'I've never heard anything like this before' and the second thing I thought was 'I've heard this all before, somewhere'. I think the truth probably lies somewhere in between - Horehound is a kind of recombinant album, country/western meets blues meets hard rock meets rap metal. Individually the parts don't sound particularly new - blues licks, banjo sounds, feedback noise, Led Zep, reggae-style delay. But we've never really heard them put together like this, with such facility and with such attitude.

'Treat me like your mother' is probably the best (and cleverest) song on the album, and sounds a bit like Rage Against the Machine grown a sense of humour. 'I Cut Like a Buffalo' has Jack White singing some of the evilest reggae ever made by human beings. 'So far from your weapon' - a sort of far out blues written by Alison Mosshart, but it hits home, which is more than can be said for Frank Black and his parade of weirdness. So Jack White and co have a bit more of a handle on weirdness than perhaps any band that capitalises on the aesthetic have had. And it's good. The rest of the album is just gravy - Bob Dylan cover, instrumental which wouldn't sound out of place on the soundtrack to starcraft 2 (which is a compliment), 12 bar blues, the works.

The truth is the re-tread nature of this album may cause non-discerning individuals to dismiss it as 'jock-rock', or a bunch of over the hill rockers trying to be Limp Bizkit (which it certainly -may- sound like). But give them credit for a sense of irony, which is draped over the album like a good sauce. Jack White never falls victim to his macho constructions - although he never distances himself to the point of outright tongue-in-cheek. There is a sense of revelry in the over-the-top riffs and aggression and macho posture (especially on Mosshart's part) - and this ironic distance gives the album the depth it needs, proving once again that white is a genius and that it is possible to make some headbangin' hard rock without being stupid. Applause.

adam

Tuesday, September 29

Wednesday, September 23

I am in love with Alison Mossheart

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1Goi2YcW2To

Not many vocalists can actually send chills down my spine.

adam

Dear Friend

I've seen the way she looks at you
very ugly - that comingling of familiarity
and expectation
very unbecoming (like something out of a movie scene)

as if her eyes could wrench
your sordid emotions from your chest
still throbbing; bleeding.

I've seen your smile (ecstatic/bovine)
your little jokes (asinine)
and a thousand little sins against Man
Please.

I know they are masks for happiness.
I know you are only hateful because
you hate how joyful
how unnecessary
how sublime your happiness is
You can't take it
but if you give it away it'll break my heart fuck you


Friday, September 18

Premature

I will not fall into the trap of making Pronouncements this time. As far as I'm concerned, the greatness or lack thereof, and the success or lack thereof, of this new band called the Dead Weather can be bloody well left to fate, or market forces, or Jeebus or whoever's miserable job it is to decide these things. But for now, I kind of like them. Normally I'd be a bit suspicious of the new, almost painfully hip indie posturing of which Jack White is almost certainly guilty of. But the music is redeeming - loud, difficult but firmy attached to the ground via the blues, which is one of Jack's few redeeming qualities. Alison Mossheart is charming, the other two kind of blend in but the organ is wicked, all in all it's a good time and I sincerely hope they go somewhere rather than become another White Stripes side project.

adam

I believe in the market

I consider it a (partial) vindication of the modern audience's taste that a band as abrasive, avant-garde, noisy and melody-less as the White Stripes can make it big. Of course after shout-fests like 'seven nation army' they shored up the leaky bits with plenty of melodies on 'Get Behind me Satan' but the fact is that they are in no way a feel good pop band, and Jack White as a frontman is antiquely unhip, what with his strange tricolor fixation, blues playing and fascination with electronic noise and Bob Dylan (who's to say which is less marketable?). Still, they sell. There is hope for humanity after all.

adam

Thursday, September 17

Albums pt 2

With less hype this time -
Creedence Clearwater Revival - Chronicle
Sonny Rollins - A Night at the Village Vanguard

I did go to the shop one of my main purposes being leaving with some country rock (because I've been into this country phase) - probably the Allman Brothers, but instead my mum wanted CCR and I figured it was worth a try. It's not totally off the wall Redneck Rock 'n Roll like the Allman Brothers, complete with hat and moustache, but it's pretty Southern, and John Fogerty ain't half bad.

adam

Albums!

Cream - Disraeli Gears
The Beatles - Revolver

The Classic Albums, Best of '67, whatever. I wanted to see what the hype was. So far I've only put Disraeli Gears on - it's as psychedelic as the cover suggests, plenty of high falsetto shrieking and reverb guitars riffing on middle eastern modes - the works. Also, fairly playfully put together (see mother's lament O.o what? psychedelic rock album plus cockney filler music?), fairly well written, Eric Clapton's guitar like a liquid orgasm laid on top of the rest of the music. Graphic.

adam

Wednesday, September 16

Waterloo Sunset - the Kinks

Robert Christgau: 'The most beautiful song in the english language'

Personally I wanted to give that to 'Sunday Girl' by blondie but to each his own I guess - and Christgau deserves props for being the Critic With a Brain, and stunningly astute on many things unrelated to music, which informs and credibilises his criticism. I do actually read his reviews for sheer entertainment value and informativeness.

Also, I love this tune.

Dirty old river, must you keep rolling
Flowing into the night
People so busy, makes me feel dizzy
Taxi light shines so bright
But I dont need no friends
As long as I gaze on waterloo sunset
I am in paradise

Every day I look at the world from my window
But chilly, chilly is the evening time
Waterloo sunsets fine

Terry meets julie, waterloo station
Every friday night
But I am so lazy, dont want to wander
I stay at home at night
But I dont feel afraid
As long as I gaze on waterloo sunset
I am in paradise

Every day I look at the world from my window
But chilly, chilly is the evening time
Waterloo sunsets fine

Millions of people swarming like flies round waterloo underground
But terry and julie cross over the river
Where they feel safe and sound
And the dont need no friends
As long as they gaze on waterloo sunset
They are in paradise

Waterloo sunsets fine

Saturday, September 5

Kim

At the suggestion of my dear friend, I have christened my new guitar Kimberley, after my heroes Kim Deal, Kim Gordon, and the Pink Ranger.

adam

Friday, September 4

Kudos

go out to Lady Gaga, whose aesthetic coherence is nothing short of stunning. I can't say I'm a huge fan of electro-pop et cetera, but this woman will be something big, just you wait and see.

adam
Robert Christgau:

"...it ought to demonstrate once and for all that the function of avant-garde art is to inspire other artists, not the public."


adam

Thursday, September 3

Led Zeppelin - the stupidest band ever to make Great Music.

Let's face it - Plant was no Lennon, Page was no Hendrix and JPJ sure as hell wasn't McCartney. Hendrix's medievalism was at least more colourful. McCartney's love songs were playful, not creepy. Simon and Garfunkel managed real folk by leaving out the machismo, something which Plant shamefully neglected to do on tracks like 'Going to California' which really reads like a mid life crisis for guys who like both Bob Dylan and shooting things.

No, Led was not a lyrics band at all. They failed in the lyrics department - and the closest they got to greatness in that department was a sophomoric dance track 'Rock and Roll' which unfortunately predates our modern club music in its subject matter. 'Stairway to Heaven' is another great failure of lyrics - it's pseudo medievalistic pagan claptrap that doesn't have the sense to be clever. In many ways they predated the regrettable trends in what was later called 'prog' and then 'neo-classical whatever' - medievalism, paganism, classism (all the isms, they're causing schisms).

And despite all the bashing I've been doing, I truly feel that they were one of the seminal acts in rock and roll after the 60s. No band today is without a deeply fundamental debt to everything they did - and though they didn't do many things well, what they did they did bloody well. And what they did well was this: a ham-fisted talent for making noise in the lower frequencies, and an clumsy (but entirely accurate) understanding of the blues. In fact, 'clumsy' is probably the best word to describe their style of ponderously repeating riffs and thundering drum beats. It was clumsy, but shockingly effective, and for this I credit that second thing, the blues, which gave Jimmy Page all the songwriting chops he needed. The blues gave them the simplicity needed to deliver the heaviness, and the result is satisfying in the gut the way the blues should be.

As the case study I pick 'When the Levee Breaks', a track in which Plant abandons his medievalism, Page abandons his progressive tendencies, and John Bonham abandons any remaining vestiges of subtlety. He opens the track here with what would become (I think) an iconic beat with the anticipated first beat of the second bar on the bass drum. As with all Led Zeppelin music, the key to heaviness (which I define as the 'insistence' that we so prize in rock music) is repetition. He does not vary the hi hat pattern, and plays sparsely so the reverb is audible. He sets a slow moving but unshakeable tempo for the song to begin, and it begins on a note of steadiness, steadiness that soon develops into inevitability. Inevitability is the real theme here - 'If it keeps on raining, the levee's gonna break/ If it keeps on raining, the levee's gonna break/ If the levee breaks, I'll have no place to stay'. Notice how even after the the first line is repeated a la traditional blues, the words 'levee breaks' happen one more time in the third line, as if the first two times didn't make it clear enough. This slow build of paranoia is one of the rare successes of their songwriting. The guitar intro is played with a slide, like the real bluesmen did - only he plays the same thing over and again, only three notes - the root (and harmonised fifth, making it the 'heaviest' chord playable on a guitar at any pitch), the flattened major third or 'blue note', again harmonised, and the fifth. Aside from the blue note, these notes are colourless, being the fundamentals of the harmony. The nature of the notes is not lost on the listener - he only hears the blue note, the 'colour', the root which is the resolution, and the fifth which is tension. The slow ululation of tension-resolution over the steady drum beat, always with exactly the same notes, is another element that adds to the growing paranoia prevalent in the intro.

The next part of interest is the sudden instrumental refrain, which modulates to the major key. The tone here is almost triumphant - I say almost because the blues is never triumphant, and Page proves his facility with the idiom here - but the resolution from the 7th chord makes it uneasy, almost terrifying in a Gothic sort of way rather than satisfying. The chorus of multi-tracked guitar parts adds to this cathedral-like atmosphere, hinting infinitesimally at the sound of a wind orchestra, and the associated grandeur. It is a terrifying grandeur.
The second half of the refrain is a motif played distorted with slide guitar. Again, the three phrases are variations of the same melodic motif, and the repetition serves to create a feeling of insistence and intensity. It should be noted that this part of the refrain is not played in the intro, only after the first verse. Again, Page plays only simple chords. The accompaniment plays a root and a fifth, which reminds us of the band's perennial medieval obsession - certainly, it sounds like a drone note music, tonally resembling bagpipes or violin, both of which are often used to play drone notes in traditional scottish, irish, and indian musics. The medievalism here is subtle at least, and they get away with it - it only adds a not unwelcome colour to their straight-ahead blues.

TBC soon!

adam

Monday, August 31

I know you, you know me

One thing I can tell you is you got to be free!

Sunday, August 30

A bit late for Beatlemania

This would've been so much cooler if I could've done it 40 years ago when the whole world was doing it too. Now I just get ridiculous looks on the MRT because i'm headbanging to 'Drive my Car' instead of oh, Akon or something. At least, I think they're ridiculous looks because I feel silly inside. But the music will not let go!

Little darling, I feel that ice is slowly melting
Little darling, it seems like years since it's been clear
Here comes the sun, here comes the sun
and I say it's alright.


adam

Saturday, August 29

New Guitar

On track with the New Things trend we've been seeing, I finally caved and bought another guitar - partly cos my crappy cheap strat is starting to fall apart, and partly just for the heck of it. I managed to find a red Gibson '61 reissue SG at guitar connection, and immediately fell in love.

I won't gush about it here because only two people probably in my entirely hypothetical readership (i'm not quite convinced any of you exist anymore - my blog is an exercise in solipsism) would understand what I mean by 'the pickups are just the right temperature' and I DON'T mean they were toasted for eight and a half minutes before installation.

So - quite a bit poorer now, have to figure out how to use this thing (it's NOT the same...) and I'm accepting bids for names. Although I'll probably ignore all suggestions anyway. Hypothetical names are okay too.

adam

Friday, August 14

I'm (mostly) back from my temporary brush with insanity, with the help of a few friends and four englishmen who happened to be called the Beatles. I guess this is a bit (very) late to be realising, but having listened to some(not enough) of the canon of popular music in this century, this must be the most sacred music ever to grace the realms of human creation. It isn't perfect music, but it is hallowed in every sense of the word that means anything to human beings.

adam

Monday, August 10

Sparrow

Desdemona brought me a dead sparrow this morning - at some level I deeply enjoy being the recipient of these animal sacrifices.

adam

Friday, August 7

Stupidity

I have become the connoisseur of stupidity. I have seen it in every possible form, and naked in its Platonic manifestation. The stupidity of others has confounded, frustrated, awed and bewildered me. But no stupidity is ever as all-encompassing, as immense, as brilliant and diaphanous and unstained as my own. This particular time I have outdone myself by leagues by the simplicity, the humility, the selflessness... the sheer purity of the act. For a few minutes there I was a man transmogrified like Jesus on the hilltop into the very incarnation of stupidity, made beautiful by surrendering my entire soul to its all-consuming force.

adam

Wednesday, August 5

Loneliness

is not a philosophical problem - it's a biological reaction. I feel like my responses have been hijacked by chemicals - but that's an illusion - my responses aren't much more than chemicals. I just wish there was something I could do about it.

adam

Tuesday, August 4

Sanctuary

After the week of non-commitments and half-eaten fantasies, it's nice to be back in the real world. I put on 'Sanctuary' from Miles's Bitches Brew album, and realiset that that was what I'd been needing all week.

adam

Monday, August 3

Hey ho, let's go.

This is going to be one of those intractable posts about my continuing inability to be at peace with the world. Incidentally, I'm at the mess computer in camp and it's been a long week.

My capacity for responsibility has worn thin. I've pretty much stopped caring about anything that happens in the army, for the good reason that it's mind-crushingly pointless. But I used to be able to do my job... and I consider that one of the attributes a non-useless person must have in this world. I am slowly losing my grip on non-uselessness. Don't get me wrong, I love my men, but it's a different sort of relationship with them, mostly based on trading insults and comparing penis sizes - not all in all a fulfilling existence. I miss having a real conversation. I miss talking for hours about pointless (but interesting) philosophical quibbles. I miss not having to walk around in a protective shell made out of belligerence. And I've resorted to more and more outlandish (and often destructive) ways of coping with this.

I mean, this is truly pathetic, that I can't seem to handle a little thing like this without becoming self-destructive. It was alright when I was just content with destroying my body. But that barely seems like enough now - I fear I've started to play games with my mind and my heart that no sane person would attempt. It is worrying.

On the dubious upside, I know I should make it through alive. My family is composed some of the most arrogant, stubborn people on this planet. And I won't give up even if (and especially if) it kills me. I just hope I don't drag too many people down on the way.

So - bring it on, motherfuckers.

adam

Thursday, July 30

Test

Cool... Blog by email, by handphone.

New Phone

With the plan renewal comes new handset time (it's about time, I say - my k800i is now 3 years old and starting to grey around the temples). I could have opted for the really sexy HTC model, or god forbid an iPhone, but for budget and perhaps camp security reasons I went for the archaic (and indeed, arcane) nokia e71 - a model that, while clunky and quite hideous (I got mine in a manhood-approving shade of red), appeals to me in its sheer, almost medieval brute force approach to design. I like that there is no touch-screen, there are no stylish symbols, just a don't-fuck-around-with-me qwerty keyboard on the front, an i-don't-give-a-fuck tiny LCD display, and a why-am-i-even-bothering 3.2 camera, which used to be huge but now isn't. This is a phone for people who get the job done the messy way. I love the features, too, which it sure doesn't fall short on.

adam

Tuesday, July 28

OC SAY ADAM! I WANT BULLET FLY OVER THERE
I SAY HOW MANY?
OC SAY MANY MANY!
I SAY YES SIR.

adam

Saturday, July 25

Odd

I just re-discovered a blog that I started two(!) years ago and promptly left to die. It's RTVOODOO, my music blog - and I've gone and updated it just to keep up with the general spirit of necromancy that seems to be prevalent.

rtvoodoo.blogspot.com

adam

Friday, July 3

Are and Gee

I'd just like to take a moment to plug a play which I won't before because I'm in the army, but which my friends are producing/acting in, and which I think is a fantastic endeavour. Tom Stoppard's 'Rosencrantz and Guildenstern are Dead' will be on 17th-19th of July. You can contact me, Terence Lee, Ryan D or Chengyi for info.

adam

Further Impressions

Okay, I've not had much time with Closer, but I have spent many ecstatic hours listening to Rising Down, and it is definitely worth the critics' hype. I can't say I know much about hip hop, but I know a little about music - and this album shows a band (and a crew, let's not forget) at its prime, basking in the sheer joy of inventiveness, whether it be ?uestlove's manic drum beats or Black Thought's flow (eat shit, Kanye!). Mos Def opens the lyrics with an apocalyptic tableaux. Dice Raw carries on with the protest song 'Get Busy' before Black Thought commits vocal murder with freestyle @15 and burns his competitors hard on '75 bars (Black's Reconstruction)'.
They break out the gangsta rap for 'Criminal'.

The two closers on the international version ('Birthday Girl' was left out in the American release, sadly) function like the closers on 'London Calling'. 'Rising Up' is nothing short of apocalyptic, with a flaming fusion beat, choir and modulating chords banging on the electric piano. 'Birthday Girl' brings things to a personal level - this is the 'Train in Vain' of rap right here and it closes the album on a slightly sentimental note - but don't mistake this for mush. It's the cleverest song on the album. 'I just let you inside cos the line was so heavy/But i shoulda know better cos now I feel like america's underbelly/R. Kelly, gutter smut peddlers, internet predators, chat room irregulars', Black raps. It's also stunning for making actual musical use of Fallout Boy's singularly talent-less lead singer. I doubt if he wrote this himself, but the final chorus is (and I turn a little teary here) quite stirring, and quite witty
'They can't really seem to look away
so they tried asking her to stay
fake ID you won't get turned away
you look lovely tonight

Now you're old enough to buy a gun
so many better ways of having fun
right now I can only think of one
You look lovely tonight'

Some of the reviews blamed Black Thought for rapping too seriously on this album. It's not funny, says Rolling Stone - they're probably right. But just when you think he's starting to become Jesse Jackson, the band turns a hairpin and reminds you that they sure as fuck are having fun.

adam

Saturday, June 20

Double album buy!
The Roots - Rising Down
Joy Division - Closer

Both of these stem from the arty side of rap and punk rock no doubt. First impressions will have to wait until I've had some alone time, but I do want to take this opportunity to officially forgive Fallout Boy for all their musical mistakes now that Patrick Stump has lent his dubiously necessary voice to that brilliant Roots track, 'Birthday Girl'. The reviews were right about it not fitting in with the album, but it is clever, catchy, clever, and you know what? Who gives a fuck about the world, if we had more songs like this we'd be alright.

adam

Friday, June 19

16 reasons why God would never get tenure

  1. He had only one major publication.
  2. And it was in Hebrew.
  3. And it had no references.
  4. And it was not published in a refereed journal.
  5. And some even doubted that He wrote it Himself.
  6. It may be true that He created the world, but what has He done since then?
  7. His cooperative efforts have been quite limited.
  8. The scientific community has had a very rough time trying to replicate His results.
  9. He never applied to the Ethics Board for permission to use human subjects.
  10. When one experiment went awry, He tried to cover it up by drowning the subjects.
  11. When subjects did not behave as predicted, He often punished them, or just deleted them from the sample.
  12. He rarely came to class: He just told students to read the book.
  13. He has his son teach the class.
  14. He expelled His first two students for learning too much.
  15. Although there were only ten requirements, most students failed His tests.
  16. His office hours were infrequent, and usually held on a mountain top.
I think selfhood is overrated. When all's said and done we are victims, not champions, of who we are.

Sunday, June 14

I want to be upbeat and aloof and above all the petty little troubles. But I keep feeling this miry misery bringing me down - it is a low, pathetic, animal emotion. There are 3 emotions that are worthy of homo superior - joy, wonder and anger.

adam

Sunday, June 7

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=H9RAbi2xEvo&feature=related

The thing that separates these girls from Simple Plan (cutesy hairstyle and drug-induced kitsch MVs notwithstanding) is nothing more profound than the musical tact to put their accents in the right places. The simple mastery of rhythm turns what would otherwise be a humdrum cover with nothing but four-on-the-floor and ye olde basicke punke beate into a sincere, intelligent and energetic tribute. 

adam

Friday, June 5

The power of Led Zeppelin IV to cause me to curl up in a foetal ball and whimper still astounds. A fairly powerful speaker system helps. 

Tuesday, May 12

The new anti-smoking campaign announces a 'Rockin' without Smokin' concert - and suddenly I am overcome by the threat of a congregation of terrible Straight Edge bands making music awful enough to wake the dead who sleep beneath the foundations of the Esplanade. 

Actually, no - there aren't actually any good bands in Singapore, although the Observatory comes close at times, as does ublues - but my real grief with this ridiculous business is that making rock squeaky clean is necessarily disingenuous, if you actually give a shit about the music. Now, don't get me wrong - I don't in any way promote smoking, although I have done my fair share of it. But to use rock (or the idea of rock, in this case - asking for actual rock in this country is asking for far too much) to push your own squeaky clean agenda is to disassociate it with everything that rock stands for - the great sacred chaos at the heart of human interactions. 

I'm not outraged at this point. The concert is well meaning, and given the quality of past such productions I'm not (and doubt if anyone is) shocked. But I'd like to add my voice to a debate that maybe will help this sodden little country grow up a bit.

adam


Saturday, May 9

Last night was quite the disaster. Still making sense of what happened - but hey, I guess you don't get awesome unless you're prepared to accept epic failure. 

Sigh.

adam

Tuesday, May 5

Science: the God of Small Things (with apologies to Arundhati Roy)

From this moment on, I will be featuring a new sort of blog entry, one that celebrates the little observations that keep you on the thin and narrow ridge line of Sanity, the joyful little discoveries that make you sit up for a moment and go 'wow,' and thank your preferred deity that but for the whim of Science, we might all still be sitting in caves and scratching our armpits and watching the Simpsons.

1. 

Put a watermelon in the refrigerator for a few hours. Take it out, cut it into small chunks and eat it. 90%  of the pieces will be colder on one side. This happens because the outside of the watermelon is the first to lose heat to the cooling effect of the refrigerator - common sense really, but in the days of Phlogiston and liquid heat (scientists actually believed heat was a liquid until alarmingly recently) there would have been a considerable lot more confusion. I think it is actually beautiful that the same laws that govern the motion of the heavenly bodies and the rise and fall of the tides could actually make chilled watermelon pieces cold only on one side. If there is a God, he truly is a joker.

Sunday, May 3

" And I really like Strauss and Mozart and all that, but the priceless gift that African Americans gave the whole world when they were still in slavery was a gift so great that it is now almost the only reason many foreigners still like us at least a little bit. That specific remedy for the worldwide epidemic of depression is a gift called the blues. "
- Kurt Vonnegut

I am happy, for I have found my Kind of Blue. 
When I opened the Head Hunters cd to rip to to FLAC, imagine my surprise when two cds fell out - one of which was the Kind of Blue that I'd been mourning the loss of for months. 

Rejoice, for my brother was dead and now is alive!

adam

Back from Taiwan

Not something I really want to talk about. 

Did get the opportunity to shop for some clothes, though. 
I've got about a week off, sans wednesday, so I guess i'll try and get back to my old life for a quick while before it's torn away from me again. I will not succumb to army! 

In keeping with the general atmosphere of hope and all that, here's some Shonen Knife:

IT'S A NEW FIND

Feel in your pockets for something fun
Wash your socks and turn them inside out
Try to look hip in old ugly clothes
There'll be something different in your life

*It's a new find, It's a new find,
It's a new find, It's a new
It's a new find, It's a new find,
It's a new find, It's a new

Let's all get up and dance to a song
It gets you feelin' very nice
You can have a strange hair cut
There'll be something different in your life

*repeat x2

I can't find any more but you can find a new way

Sache down the street in platform shoes
You can find some new scenery
Make up with your friend and try again
There'll be something different in your life



Monday, April 6

Just a perfect day
Drink sangria in the park
And then later, when it gets dark, we'll go home
Just a perfect day
Feed animals in the zoo
Then later a movie too, and then home

[Chorus:]
Oh it's such a perfect day
I'm glad I spent it with you
Oh such a perfect day
You just keep me hanging on
You just keep me hanging on

Just a perfect day
Problems all left alone
Weekenders on our own
It's such fun

Just a perfect day
You make me forget myself
I thought I was someone else
Someone good

[Chorus]

You're going to reap just what you sow
You're going to reap just what you sow
You're going to reap just what you sow
You're going to reap just what you sow

Sunday, April 5

Went clubbing. It is aggressively pointless, but I guess that could be the idea. In our world, where everything is manufactured for fast, effective results; where we get straight to the point and discard the packaging; where we make pacts with the demons of efficiency to trade our souls for Extra Credit - it may be that pointlessness is the rallying cry of my generation.

adam

Monday, March 30

Kari Carpenter

is, I suspect, one of those people whose accent gets more Southern the more drunk she gets. Listen to the studio version of 'Top of the world' (sober) and the live version (considerably more Texan)

adam

Shonen Knife - Or, Music for Strangely Disillusioned 9-Year Olds - Or, Everything You Thought You Knew About Music is Wrong.

This is going to be difficult to put into words - because the primary effect of the music of Shonen Knife is to shamanistically invoke the hyperactive nine-year old that secretly resides deep in our hearts. And nine-year olds are not historically very good at english. Nevertheless - I shall try - for the sake of science. 

Immediately I felt a huge discord within myself as if I had invoked some kind of jungian doppelganger. The grown up in me wanted to goggle in austere horror at the sheer travesty of it all. Shonen Knife does not sound well on cultured ears. The nine year old that I talked about earlier was, on the other hand, ecstatic like he'd been given a bag of lollipops - I can only attribute this mysterious reaction to the presence of some kind of mystical force. 

After awhile the initial shock was replaced with a grating feeling that I've done my growing up too fast. 

adam

Saturday, March 28

life changing redux

Better put up a few more in case you got the idea that I was a music lover.

6. h2g2
7. the great gatsby
8. prufrock
9. eats, shoots & leaves
10. anarchy in the u.k.
11. Little Wing

life-changing

Name 5 events that have shaped who you are as a person.

1. A Love Supreme
2. E.S.P.
3. The Velvet Underground
4. Led Zeppelin IV
5. Preludes

adam

Saturday, March 21

Ever proof that my poor damaged brain is slowly receding into childhood.


I can't get this song out of my head.

adam

Sunday, March 15

I'm on the highway to burnout city, with an open mind and a song in my heart.

In other news, there is true joy in Wynton Marsalis and the Modern Jazz Quartet's rendition of 'Cherokee'. 

adam

Sunday, March 8

Most incongruous bassist

This award needs to go to Krist Novoselic of Nirvana. See this link: 


Kurt Cobain looks like he's faced down the collected horrors of the 20th century and been found wanting. He looks wasted. Krist looks like he's just got back from the frat party and knows the reason Kurt is so bummed is cos he just stole his entire stash of pot and smoked it all at once. He looks like he wishes he was in the Beatles. Check out the stupid grin on his face at 1.54. Pat Smear also looks like he wishes he was Slash, but that's different - he's just a guest guitarist and gets to make an idiot of himself.

adam

Friday, March 6

The Boxer

One of the songs I really love is Simon and Garfunkel's 'The Boxer' not just because it's unusually intelligently and sensitively written but because it gets slowly, imperceptibly but insistently louder as it plays, growing from a quiet folksy ditty to a towering, reverb-drenched wall of multi-tracked orchestra. 

This usually allows me to use it to drown out people I don't want to talk to - 'Hey, do you listen to Simon & Garfunkel? This song's pretty cool, lemme put it on for me to hear...' 
'Yeah, I'm doing good, I'm in army now.... nope... don't believe I've heard of that movie... what's that? sorry I can't hear you LAI LA LAI. LAI LA LAI LAI LAI LAI LAI


adam

Sunday, March 1

I guess I should update this every now and then. 
So.

Army is shit, that's about all I really have to say. 

adam

Sunday, February 22

Devastated

Led Zeppelin IV. How I lived on for so long unaware of this, I don't know. 

Friday, January 30

Hey - The Pixies

hey 
been trying to meet you
mmmmmm hmmmmm
hey
must be a devil between us
or whores in my head
whores at my door
whore in my bed
but hey
where 
have you
been 
if you go i will surely die
we're chained
we're chained
we're chained
we're chained
we're chained (chained)
we're chained (chained)
we're chained (chained)
we're chained (chained)
we're chained (chained)
we're chained (chained)
we're chained (chained)
we're chained (chained)
we're chained (chained)
we're chained (chained)

uh said the man to the lady
mmmmmm hmmmm
uh said the lady to the man she adored
and the whores like a choir
go uh all night
and mary ain't you tired of this
uh
is 
the 
sound 
that THE MOTHER MAKES WHEN HER BABY breaks
we're chained
we're chained
we're chained
we're chained
we're chained (chained)
we're chained (chained)
we're chained (chained)
we're chained (chained)
we're chained (chained)
we're chained (chained)
we're chained (chained)
we're chained (chained)
we're chained (chained)
we're chained (chained)

Wednesday, January 28

When the new year depression starts to set in, when piles of money and gifts and new things start slowly to dissolve into the generic-brown shade of slushy Oh Bugger, sometimes I feel that the world has cheated me with its pretensions of significance. 

To cleanse my soul, I turn up Ornette Coleman and the late works of John Coltrane.

adam

Tuesday, January 27

The Pixies - Doolittle

Got this for an exorbitant price at Borders. Can't find it anywhere else (mean looks directed at Gramophone - you have been outdone by a bookstore, what the fuck.) 

This is the album Surfer Rosa should've been, I think. The aforementioned is a bit too infatuated with its own weirdness. Doolittle is slightly less weird (in pixies terms, this still means ridiculously loopy) but has more meat and gravy in terms of actual songs. And they've lost none of the manic energy. 

Notable mentions - Here Comes Your Man, a pop song with a melody worthy of the great punk bands of the 70s. 
Enough has been said about Debaser and Wave of Mutilation, so maybe i'll skip those here.
Dead is quite a corker, and quite the contrast with the punky, melodic side of Black Francis's writing. This is clearly where Cobain got his inspiration from. 

These guys are still one of my all time favourite bands. The weird schtick puts just the right light on what I love to call simple, solid songwriting, which must be the underpinning of any popular music. They have sonic chops too - 'articulate but not clean' arrangements which bring out the roar in their strange but compelling brand of rock n roll.

adam

Saturday, January 10

Here's a thought

Here's a thought: what if, even if we DO believe in individuals and the integrity of the Person as the fundamental unit of being, our cultural advances only come when society is 'ready' for it? Ready not as in being willing to accept a new idea (God knows that never happens) but ready as in possessing the pre-requisite ideas (think of Alpha Centauri here if it helps) that somehow must logically build up to a new development? 

For example, many of the major scientific discoveries of our century, and indeed the last few, were made simultaneously, or within the span of a few years, and completely independently. Calculus springs to mind, certainly, as does relativity. Perhaps Newton and Leibniz only made the last logical leap from the precipice of the mountain of collected human mathematical wisdom. In fact, this is probably almost certainly true, but it does have some implications about culture. I believe it was Newton who said that he had only stood on the shoulders of giants (or was it Einstein? I forget). 

The implication : How can I create in a society so dead as ours? Scientific ideas are transferrable by hard and fast rules: papers and calculations. Cultural ideas are not. Certainly Rilo Kiley's excellent album Under The Blacklight would not have been possible 30 years ago. Neither would The Remains of the Day. Virginia Woolf's majestic oeuvre would have been without a foot to stand on without the works of Austen and the Bronte sisters. Cultural ideas need their prerequisites as much as science and math do, but science and math are universal languages and culture is not. Hence: am I limited to the primevial state of my country's culture? 

adam

Thursday, January 1

What a stupid thing to say. Happy New Year. Say it twenty times in your head and see if you sound silly - I guarantee you will. Happy New Year. Are we hoping for the new year to be happy, or just stating the fact that as of 12.19 am it is still largely happy? Of all the semantically confused idioms we thoughtlessly pepper our speech with, this must be the most incoherent, the most semantically confused of them all. Maybe the incoherence is the only real way to describe the only real way a human being can approach the new year - worn, tired, terrified but perhaps just a little unable to shake off a terrible hope that things will maybe be better. 

adam

Wednesday, December 31

SITUATIONS (see a couple of posts down)

Man: Hey, did you just kick me in the shins?
Me: No, but I fucked your girlfriend.

ba-dum PISH!


adam
Blondie - Sunday Girl
Quite possibly the most beautiful song ever written. Sexy, and aggressively shallow, the melody charms your heart while the churning intellectual steam-train of Pop grabs your brain by the vulnerable bits and gives it a good shaking. 

Sonic Youth - Free City Rhymes
This is the poncier, snobbier side of intellectualism, and Sonic Youth treads thin ice here, but what glorious ice it is! Thurston Moore's sonic New York-flavoured mishmash is ethereally beautiful, and the almost melody brings home the ghostly heart of his beloved city. 

Rilo Kiley - Silver Lining
I love this song. Rilo Kiley hearkens back to Blondie not in sound but in aggressively poppish material which is anything but ashamed to be catchy. The kicker is Jenny Lewis's songwriting which is several layers deep and pretty no matter how you look at it. "I was your silver lining/but now I'm gold" Eat your heart out, Lit majors. 

Beastie Boys - B-Boys makin' with the freak freak
Not particularly chosen for the quality of the rap, which I'm admittedly clueless about. But these boys were like the Sonic Youth of rap. Rap historians may forget that they played some motherfuckin' funk that hails Funkadelic itself in invention and sheer joyous sonic fuckery. They pull out all the stops: double-bass, tape loops, scratching, sound clips. 

Arcade Fire - Intervention
After the Sensitive Jerks with Acoustic Guitars (Jason Mraz - guilty) and the Touchy Feely Pop Bands (coldplay) and the Annoying Pseudo Religious Harcdore Bands (Avenged Sevenfold, shittiest band quite possibly in the history of music ever), Win and gang bringing back the Excess into rock and roll is a wonderful, wonderful feeling. They did this one on the biggest church organ in england. No poncy classical/jazz pretentions here. The organ gets straight to the 1-6-4-5, blasting out the chords like some demented church organist, except the gospel here is Rock and Win Butler is the preacher. Workin' for the church while your family dies, indeed. 

Velvet Underground - After Hours
This one's been covered by everyone from Rilo Kiley to the Red Hot Chili Peppers, and that's because we all love it. Moe Tucker singing? Yes. Moe Tucker singing out of tune? Fuck yes. Nobody makes it charming like she does. The simplicity of the lyrics belies the depth and detail of feeling displayed here - 'If you close the door, I'll never have to see the day again' tells of desperation, denial, naivete, and child-like faith, without once losing a tight grip on making sense. The melody is heartbreaking. I think a fitting song for the end of this year.

adam


Amidst Rilo Kiley's happy sunshine (but oddly intelligent) pop album, I discover a song about (guess what) blowjobs. Is this some ritual bands use to proclaim their Indie Cred? 

'I took a man to my room/I was smokin' him in bed/Yeah I was smokin in bed/That's what he said'

adam

Thursday, December 25

There is nothing more joyous I can think of than the fact that we are all slowly dying like fires in a cold night. Burn on, my brothers - Merry Christmas.

adam

Saturday, December 20

IN THE NEWS: SARAH PALIN EATEN BY MOOSE

In an unfortunate series of accidents, ex-vice-presidential Candidate Sarah Palin was eaten by a moose last Saturday. The Governer Palin was taking a bath in melted Swiss Cheese, which she claimed 'makes my complexion so silky, you betcha!' when her bathroom wall collapsed from the impact of an enraged and cheese-starved moose.

The moose in question seemed sheepish when interviewed and claimed it was 'all a huge misunderstanding'. Mooses are common in Alaska and normally eat moss, but biologists and ethologists on the case are perplexed by what noted boffin Richard Dawkins has called a 'sudden predilection for cheese and stupidity'. 

adam

Sunday, December 14

IN THE NEWS: Obama's pastor bashes Klingons


The Rev. Jeremiah Wright has appeared in a video on Youtube with a fiery indiction of Klingons, who he claims were 'cast out by God' sometime around the second season of Star Trek: The Next Generation. 'Klingons do not go to heaven, the Bible clearly states this,' he said. 
 

Saturday, December 13

If there was a phrase which could sum up the human condition in all its variety, it would be 'OH FUCK OH FUCK OH FUCK OH FUCK OH FUCK'

adam

Friday, December 12

Not a worship song

Jesus, help me find my proper place 
Jesus, help me find my proper place
Help me in my weakness cos I'm falling out of grace
Jesus, Jesus

Jesus, help me find my proper place
Jesus, help me find my proper place
Help me in my weakness cos I'm falling out of grace
Jesus, Jesus

Jesus, help me find my proper place
Jesus, help me find my proper place
Help me in my weakness cos I'm falling out of grace
Jesus, Jesus

by The Velvet Underground

Maybe it's the little atheist in me but my first reaction to this song on their thoroughly wonderful album The Velvet Underground was 'This can't be a worship song.' I mean, nobody in the 60s had even heard of Jesus right? Wrong, as it turns out, there were some seriously creepy Jesus-freaks even back then. But part of me refuses to believe the great band would write a song so transparently. I think it's more about a personal sense of desperation and self-loathing than, well, Jesus, but I guess the Christians will disagree. 

adam

Friday, December 5

Sunday Girl by Blondie

I know a girl from a lonely street,
cold as ice cream, but still as sweet.
Dry your eyes, sunday girl.
Hey, I saw your guy with a different girl.
Looks like he's in another world.
Run and hide, sunday girl.

Hurry up, hurry up and wait.
I stay away all week and still I wait.
I got the blues.
Please come see,
what your lovin means to me.

She can't catch up with the working crowd.
The weekend mood and she's feeling proud.
Live in dreams, sunday girl.
"Baby, I would like to go out tonight".
"If I go with you my folks will get uptight".
Stay at home, sunday girl. (oooooh...)

Hey, I saw your guy with a different girl.
Looks like he's in another world.
Run and hide, sunday girl.
When, I saw you again in the summer time,
if your love was as sweet as mine,
I could be sunday's girl.

Hurry up, hurry up and wait.
I stay away all week and still I wait.
I got the blues.
Please come see,
what your lovin means to me.
Hurry up!
Hurry up, hurry up and wait.
I got the blues, please, please..
Please come see,
what you do to me.
I got the blues..

Hurry up!
Hurry up, hurry up and wait.
Hurry up!
Please come see,
what you do to me.

I've thought of something brilliant : instead of actually having a cool life which I'm sadly unable to do, I shall think up cool situations to be in and put them up here so I can live them vicariously through everyone else's imagination!

Scene 1: Some half assed lame indie kid hits me up on msn by asking me if 'besando chicando con Surfer Rosa' is a reference to the famous Pixies album. I have a good laugh for a good 90 minutes after that. 

adam

EDIT: I and I no come to fight flesh and blood, but spiritual wickedness in high and low places. So while they fight you down, stand firm and give Jah thanks and praises!

EDIT: Am reading Richard Dawkins's 'The Selfish Gene' which to my unscientific mind is thoroughly brilliant and if not actually brilliant is at least a fucking good read.

Monday, December 1

It's a depressing thought to realise that when you come back from army on the weekend or on leave, most of the world just doesn't have time for you. 

Sunday, November 30

In retrospect, one of the more apt turns of phrase that I've stumbled upon with regards to my ongoing relationship with music is 'chemical dependence'. While other people might claim to love music or find complete fulfilment in music I find the only reliable way to describe my need for music is that my brain needs it like it needs alcohol or heroin (or would need if I did heroin...). It's not good for me, it's highly destructive and it often reduces me to a trembling, incoherent wreck. But once you're in, there's no stopping and often one is overcome with a feeling of defensive indignation when people tell you that you should stop for your own good. 

Yes, um. I don't know what the point of that ramble was. I've been listening to 'One Way or Another' for the last 4 hours non-stop.

adam

Monday, November 24

IRIS by the Breeders

Four hours in the pot, one hour out 
It grows and I sleep standing up 
When Iris sleeps over 
What a book she'll write 
Oh last night 
Oh come on, nobody wants that 
Sister, sister, Oh... 
We tried hour by hour 
Hour by hour 
Hour by hour 

Four hours to daylight, four hours and then 
Pour water on me til I live again 
When Iris sleeps over 
It'll be alright 
All last night 
But come on, nobody wants that 
Sister, sister, oh... 
We tried hour by hour 
Hour by hour 
Hour by hour 

Sunday, November 23

Ah, I think it was Sam Harris who wrote in Time or Newsweek or somesuch about how elitism in politics should be a Good Thing because after all we want elites everywhere else doing stuff for us why shouldn't our politicians be qualified? With respect to Sarah Palin, of course. I agreed with this, mostly, because yes I do believe running a country is necessarily a complex and difficult not to mention pivotal job and hence deserves qualified professionals. 

There is a difference however between the elite and the elitists and I find Sam Harris misses the point a little here : not even the hockey mums and Joe the Whatever want an incompetent in the White House. They didn't want someone who ignores the needs of the middle-class, and perhaps misguidedly rallied around Palin and her unfortunate populists. This doesn't invalidate populism, because it is possible to be elite (i.e. highly qualified) without being elitist (i.e. ignorant of the needs of the middle/lower classes). So Sam Harris' incredulous sniffle at the whole Palin saga was perhaps, a little too incredulous. I still think she was an idiot though.

adam

MOVIE REVIEWS

WALL.E - awesome.
Balls of Fury - silly.
Meet The Spartans - Gut-wrenchingly stupid.


Friday, November 21

Taiwan plus POP

So let's get the nail-biting-y suspense bits out of the way. I've been posted to 1st Guards, which is good/bad in equally gigantic parts, because I will absolutely DIE in the guards conversion course, but I guess the rapelling and swimming bits might be fun, as compared to ASLC which is to fun what Salman Rushdie is to fundamentalist muslims. I guess also I'd like to actually assume some real command instead of going to BMT, just because it sounds like an interesting thing to be doing. 

But, four weeks ago:   I flew off to taiwan for my finale exercise. It was 

--------------------------- OFFICIAL SECRETS ACT -------------------------------------

but mostly pretty fun, I quite enjoyed the R and R.  Following that, a gruelling week of nonstop parade rehearsals, each longer than the last, designed to grind down what little was left of our willpower and leave us reduced to a desolate, mushy mashed-potato like substance. POP came, it was alright although somebody cocked up the timing, we got our chevrons and fucked off right after we got our postings. So it's first guards, whoopee I guess I'll be at camp on monday then.

adam

Friday, October 24

Like, the funniest thing, ever?

Malmsteen fans telling Dragonforce fans they know nothing about music.


Go youtube!

adam

Wednesday, October 22

Northern Exposure is the Pixies of TV comedy - it may not be as quick or as loud as any of the newer stuff, but they sure as fuck don't make shows like that anymore. There are few characters I've known more endearing than the neurotic physician Joel Fleischmann.

adam

Tuesday, October 21

Three Essays

Below you will find three short essays. The first one is titled 
'Poetry and the sordid state of humanity'

I wish I could write, I really do. It has never been my strong suit, and I struggled greatly with the difficulty during my junior college years, of writing essays that were clear and argumentative. I do love a good argumentative piece. I read the Economist and Time exclusively for those, and I find a well-argued essay a wonderful thing like a perfectly cut diamond, cutting swathes of sparkling light through the fog of ignorance and grinding away the detritus of imprecision and indecision, pausing only to scoff as I gleefully mix my metaphors. In the same way, nothing stimulates my academic pleasure centres like a well-argued debate, although there are none to be had in Singapore. I just don't seem to be able to do them myself, and whenever I write what I feel to be a cogent argument I come back a week later to re-read it and find it floppy, imprecise, and downright shameful oftentimes. I can't say for sure if this is some deficiency or merely lack of practice, but it frustrates me greatly for I am convinced that I have ideas but not the words to express them, and if this proves to be mere delusion then all is lost, I am nothing. 

Poetry is another monster altogether. I started this in sec 2 under dubious circumstances, and like argumentative writing, I'm afraid that the current assessment is that I've never been very good at it at all. My opinion of my literary skill fluctuates often. I've re-read my oeuvre (If it even deserves the term) several times and never been able to come up with a stable opinion on the load of rubbish that it is, and finally I've decided that if it's not going to convince me then it must be tosh. But I used to, and often still enjoy writing poetry. 

It used to be free verse, because I felt it was, well, freer, but quickly you realise that if the form isn't going to force you to think you end up not thinking at all and writing the same load of claptrap about frogs and whatnot. It's not intelligent at all, unless you happen to be a paragon of brilliance like Walt Whitman. So I turned to verse, which at least gets to pretend it's clever by rhyming, and have been writing rhym-ey little things ever since. 

As for subject matter, anything goes really but there are a few topics which particularly interest me, most of which being the sordid state of humanity. I wrote :

your garden gate has never been
so green and so unseen
at eight we learn to dance and sing
at nine all bad boys will grow wings

It's about a boyish dream to get out on the road and live a vagabond's life, but it's manifestly silly. The truth is, everything we've ever dreamed about is a construction built out of our insecurities, and will fall apart. 

This is, of course, only my opinion, and you needn't go home and shoot yourself just because I told you so. 

adam

Music, life, and atheism

Music started for me in the string ensemble back in Raffles Institution. My friends whose artistic taste I trust tell me we played crap music half the time and played good music crappily the other half, but it opened my ears. I loved it all, the mozart, the atonal stuff by Bartok, even that funny little christmas piece that Rayner assures me is totally silly. I would not say I have a 'passion' for music - firstly, I hate that word and the way every upstart student who wants to edge his way into university uses the word to describe how vibrant he/she is, and secondly, it's not a passion but more of a chemical dependence. A bit like heroin - I'm not proud of it at all. It's not a noble pursuit, unless you're into classical music in which case it only occasionally is, it isn't high art and most of the time it isn't vastly intellectually stimulating. I just... like it, out of some kind of bloody-minded hatred for all human beings. 

Music interests me (that is exactly the word! interests. Thoroughly noncommital) as a signifier or symbol of human community. It's an artifact of culture as well as a commentary - but mostly an artifact. Most rockers couldn't tell a sociology textbook from The Lord of the Rings - especially King Crimson, who think The Lord of the Rings IS a sociology textbook, well nuts to them, they sucked anyway. I like to make music because I think it's thoroughly good fun, and it infuriates the passionate people when I tell them it's thoroughly good fun because they think it should be something great and profound, when in reality it's just some blokes making funny noises. Yet, although it is never conceptually profound, its effects can be profound. Anger, sadness, destruction, occasionally happiness - these probably aren't intrinsic to music but are auxiliary emotions. These interest me. Nobody ever wrote a good song thinking 'this is going to be a sad one', they just thought 'this sounds good' and the sadness came as a by-product of their thoroughly sordid state of existence. 

There are only two musicians I have ever come close to taking seriously (and this doesn't include classical music because I hardly know enough) - Jimi Hendrix and John Coltrane. Pete Townshend wrote on Rolling Stone of Hendrix that he felt phony listening to him, and he felt that all The Who had were silly little songs compared to Hendrix's 'real music'. Coltrane nobody needs to emphasise - he was amongst all other musicians and men, a prophet and a preacher in his own inimitable language - out of him probably emanated the only true spirituality any musician has had to offer, the others being cleverly deceptive or deluded fakes. If you were to claim that music has a spiritual quality, I might be able to see it in these two. In everybody else - I highly doubt it. It's all in good fun, though, and I love it just fine. 

adam


The Angst of Army Life

As Wang put it to me the other day, the first five minutes of your army life, if you're anything at all like me, will be spent ricocheting from the headiness of superiority to the hollow realisation that you're stuck in this place for two years. Two years might pass quickly, if you know how to have fun. They can also turn into a neverending hell. I've been in here for almost 6 months, and they have for the most part been hell, and I genuinely hope that things improve for the next one and a half years or there is going to be trouble. 

In the army, your brain shuts off - any NSF who's had a smidgen of an education will tell you this, and for the most part it's true. Sunday afternoons are dreadful with the futility of having to go back to camp. But by tuesday you hardly feel anything at all, there's no more 'oh, this place is a shithole' - rather, just a sort of anaesthetised haze where you run about and do your thing without quite thinking about it. Well, that's not so bad, you might say. Jolly Good Fun and all that - well it isn't. The real agony comes the following sunday afternoon, when you realise just how miserable you've been but your misery-centres in your brain have become overworked by tuesday and don't produce enough misery-chemical to do the place justice. During the week, you also become quite stupid, at times, although personally I excel at technical knowledge, you forget the day of the week and what time it is and whether you've just had breakfast or lunch although since it was sausages it was probably breakfast, dreadful isn't it well yes it is. So - your brain shuts off but not for long enough to have any real comforting effect, more like the creeping horror of losing your mind as you inch toward the age of 75, only I'm 19. 

The other thing is the tiredness, the physical tiredness. Now any army worth its salt will work its trainees hard, sure. Ours does. In fact, I would go as far to say that maybe some people deserve the jolly good whacking they get and it certainly gets them in shape. I'm all for the fitness stuff. In my experience though, there never quite is enough recovery time for me, and as any course progresses I get more and more tired to the point where I sometimes report in on sunday night -already- tired from the previous week and not having had enough rest over the weekend - this is not good. As if the slow degradation of your mind isn't enough horror, the slow degradation of the body compounds this triple-time and makes you seriously worry for your health. Not that, in the throes of lactic-acid poisoning, my body is really the first of my concerns. Army also breeds a certain self-destructiveness amongst the trainees, out of desperation or sheer bloodymindedness I don't know which, but more people take up smoking in the army than anywhere else i'm certain, and if we get a choice whether to down that can of likely carcinogenic Red Bull or just go the SOC alone with half a litre of water, the Red Bull is the choice anyone would make. 
Often I've come back from a gruelling route march feeling physically sick from fatigue, refusing food and almost vomiting if there was anything left to vomit. It took me a week to recover from my 32k, during which I often had problems standing up. 

So - yes, this IS a soldier's life and as far as soldiering goes it's probably necessary. But, I don't like it and I'm seriously concerned about my body and my health and I don't think it's fair to put so many people through it if the consequences are like that. At least put some real thought into the postings, Jesus. 

adam



Monday, October 20

After listening to Get Behind Me Satan, the only drummer I will settle for is Meg White. Heavier than Dave Grohl, almost - she is one of the few people who plays the drums as an instrument rather than obligatory background rhythm noise. 

adam

Sunday, October 19

Go to msn.com - click on music - find the bottom left corner - click on 'consumer guide' - read. 
Robert Christgau knows his music, alright - although I must say Jaguar Love actually sounds like a man getting mauled to death by a large cat. Loud and angry enough for me.

adam
Back on the weekend, which is slow, sad and mournful and often punctuated with bursts of electric happiness.

I've two days off - monday, and tuesday, which makes this a long one, which leaves me more time for my music, my reading, and my self-loathing.

In a burst of such self-loathing I bought Persuasion and vowed to finish reading it, come fire, flood, or trench-digging, and this time I pulled through on the herculean feat of bashing through the 250 pages of 18th century language with the equivalent of a literary parang. Of course there's no reviewing Austen : it was as brilliant as it should have been, et cetera - I do appreciate Anne Elliot as a bit ( I think - don't crucify me, Cambridge! ) more of a mature character, a bit more vindictive and a bit more long-suffering than naive Elizabeth. The book WAS published posthumously, so I guess that would indicate it was written later.

I need a new book now. Does anyone have any suggestions?

And Now For Something Completely Different!

Radiohead! Took a re-listen to In Rainbows and despite what Christgau says (Ha! I flaunt my independent thinking) I say it's a pretty damned fine album. They really crammed the electronic effects into OK Computer like a 5-year old who can't stop playing with his christmas toys, until the squeaky noises and the digital auto-wah started spurting out of your ears and drove you quite crazy (although it was good, heady stuff nonetheless). On Rainbows we have some interesting lyrical choices, overall a more controlled use of squeaky noises, and most importantly, without which there would be no review or no album or indeed no music at all, a few bloody good songs. The chords on Jigsaw Falling Into Place bring tears to my eyes, no irony intended and when thom yorke sings in his annoyingly incomparable voice NOT JUST ONCE, NOT JUST TWICE he in fact touches that vibrating core of angst that sits at the centre of rock and roll, just for a moment. There is no shtick here, despite the electronica: just rocking music, beautiful notes, and the fact that even despite their prog-gy leanings they never sacrifice the melody for the effect.


adam

Saturday, October 18

If there's one thing I've learned, it's that the one thing man wants is the society of his peers.

Friday, October 10

SISPEC

SISPEC - a screaming nightmare that I wake up from every Friday if i'm lucky, broken, sweaty and dirty - On sunday, i'm forced at gunpoint at ten thirty to go back to sleep, kicking and screaming as it were and then finally falling asleep from exhaustion.

adam

Sunday, September 28

In Utero - Nirvana

'Teenage angst has paid off well, and now I'm bored and old' proclaims Kurt Cobain - and in fact his final album with Dave and Krist drops most (but not all) of the angst from Nevermind. In Utero is a far more abrasive, angry and far less hooky album than Nevermind - in part fueled by Cobain's increasing frustration with fame. No doubt nobody else in the history of music itself has been so thoroughly traumatised by fame as Cobain was, and on this album, it shows terrifically - in Cobain's terrified shrieking on 'Tourette's', his glue-sniffing persona on 'Dumb', his repeated scream 'GET AWAY' on 'Scentless Apprentice'. 

This is an album permeated with horror, and the effect must have been immense when it came out in the 90s because prior to this rock and roll was very much a macho affair - all big hair, poncy arrangements and misogyny. Nirvana castrated rock and replaced the big hair macho men with angry, scared shitless teenagers. The world would never trust the music industry quite the same way again when Cobain shot himself, and legions of imitators would go on to spawn alternative rock, for better or for worse. 

In Utero ends on a slower, softer note with 'All Apologies', a song widely considered to be Cobain's masterpiece. Hinting at REM and Sonic Youth, Cobain opens with a snaky, sad guitar riff. 'What else should I be? All apologies' he sings, 'Everything's my fault' and when he hits the crashing chorus it is with self-destructive abandon and an almost prophetic premonition of doom.

More than 10 years ago Frank Black of the Pixies sang 'If all in all is true, won't you please run over me' on his song 'Levitate Me'. On this album, Cobain's last release, on the last bit of the last song, he sings, almost as if answering Frank Black - 'All in all is all we are.'

adam
I don't want to get over you (by the Magnetic Fields, written by Stephin Merritt)

I don't want to get over you
I guess i could take a sleeping pill and sleep at will
and not have to go through what I go through
I guess I should take Prozac, right
and just smile all night at somebody new
somebody not too bright, but sweet and kind
who would try to get you off my mind
I could leave this agony behind
which is just what I'd do if I wanted to
but I don't want to get over you

cos I don't want to get over love
I could listen to my therapist, pretend you don't exist
and not have to dream of what I dream of
I could listen to all my friends and go out again
and pretend it's enough
or I could make a career of being blue
I could dress in black and read Camus
smoke clove cigarettes and drink vermouth like I was 17
that would be a scream
but I don't want to get over you.

Saturday, September 27

Rather Good Poetry By Some People Who I Happen To Know

Writer's Blog: I've collected some of the non-crap that we've accumulated over the years and put it all on one post, check it out. I think it's pretty neat.

adam

Friday, September 26

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Pp5eBxU248Y

Saturday, September 20

Frou Frou - Details

A souffle. Some questionable lyrical choices, and Imogen Heap isn't a terrific vocalist but manages a sort of mangled schoolgirl innocence at her best. Still, properly catchy electronica beats, intelligent arrangements - solidly likeable.

adam

Friday, September 19

John Coltrane - One Down, One Up: Live at the Half-Note

Where 'One Down, One up' is urban, discordant: 'My Favourite Things' informs the old sound of music tune with enough apocalyptic fire and brimstone to bring down a church.

adam

edit: props also for detailed, well-researched liner notes. Nothing converts me like liner notes.

Sunday, September 14

I guess more fanboyism of mopey alternative bands? This is what my life has come to. Doo-dah.

I must resist the urge to keep saying 'but seriously' and then degenerate into loopy-speak.

This week is radiohead week: that may explain the disjointedness.

Robert Christgau said (and he is my bible really when it comes to music, except of course for the pleasure centres in my brain, which are severely overworked now) that Radiohead has two modes: a more electronica-y, texture-y mode, and a rock-y, structure-y mode. The key i think to understanding this joyful dichotomy is that in the former they have layered guitar accompaniments: in the latter they have layered guitar solos. Get it? OK computer is the latter; In Rainbows is the former. Honestly i prefer them when they're fucking about with the tape loops and the stuff, but OK computer is still good honest music that you can get behind (and that solo on paranoid android, whoa?). In Rainbows is a nice album. Nice of them to give it away free too, otherwise i'd be twenty dollars deeper into my third-world-nation-crippling budget deficit. The first track, in particular, is good rolicking fun in 5/4 time.

Although I am definitely out of touch with what the world is listening to today (I still think jimi hendrix is pretty hot stuff, remember) I hope the present trend towards slightly silly punk-pop music goes away (although blink 182 has some(but not that many) things going for it, and so does Green Day) and I can only take heart that the 5-years-ago trend towards impossibly bland MOR songs about the most generic love affairs one can imagine has by now progressed into the realm of kitsch.

The two bands I have heard who are going places now, today, and not 40 years ago:
Arcade Fire and Radiohead

I hope U2 and RHCP, both stalwarts of the 80s, keep going without starting to suck (stadium arcadium? what were you thinking). I hope John Mayer scrapes some of his songwriting mojo together, with his guitar prowess, and gives us an album worthy of his idols rather than Michael Learns to Rock. I hope Nickelback dies in a fire. I hope the reunion bands - Pixies, Sonic Youth, Breeders - do justice to their illuminated past. I hope the memory of Nirvana never dies, although those who remember Nirvana often should. I hope people will let jazz die so the extremely talented performers who feel guilted into playing it by some sense of tradition will finally move on and make new, exciting music. I hope asia will finally (or have they already?) start contributing to rock music, which has become international in most senses of the word, but without needlessly co-opting american culture. If some of the newer japanese bands are any indication, we have hope (MELT BANANA. MELT BANANA.)

I hope hip hop will live up to its ideal, and become to the 90s-2000s what punk was to the 70s-80s. Outkast and Eminem - yes. 50 cent - no. I hope Eminem will be remembered like I said he would - otherwise I would've been wrong. I hope indie music will live on without the awful pretensions of its fans and practitioners.

That's all hope though. What I know is that music will live on regardless. Humans need it around.

adam

Saturday, September 13

more rock n roll.

Found a new joy surfing the web last week : The Breeders.
Basically Kim Deal (who is the sexiest person alive) decided to have a side project and The Breeders turned up. You can hear what she tried to do with the Pixies only was sidelined by Frank Black. It's angry, loud stoner rock and her abilities as a lyricist are nothing to be scoffed at.

When I was a painter, I painted you well
Too bad I have to die
You brought the essentials - perversion, appeal
and many lovers at one time.

On the more philosophical note, could it be the reason music fascinates me is that it represents an impenetrable system? My thinking is largely rooted in the idea of systems, an internally consistent set of logic and rules. I interpret science, math and much of the arts according to systems. Yet music, if delved deeply enough into, never reveals a system - the flaw is obviously in my own thinking, but I guess what I can't know intrigues me intensely. What system governs artistic appreciation? What about artistic merit? I insist there must be one for any kind of quality to be measured (art is not subjective, although taste is), and instinctively, 'quality' as a parameter DOES exist (there is good art and bad art). Yet the system for 'art' has never been adequately quantified in a way understandable by more than a few specific people. Despite this fact, high-quality art has been produced almost consistently over the centuries by every culture. Does this imply a subconscious system? I believe it does, but that doesn't mean that logical thinking will not reveal it. And if it is ever revealed, I am sure it will not be trivial enough to devalue art.

adam

Friday, September 12

Look, I've written a strongly worded email but I'm still very miffed about this. No offense to Jon at all : but whoever started the hoax is a very poor approximation of a human being.

received email:

'My mum told me about this when I arrived home from Mass earlier this evening, and right now I'm very afraid:

About the Large Hadron Collider

It's this machine that involves two beams of extremely high energy colliding just so scientists can recreate the scene of the Big Bang. A number of scientists have fears over this experiment, given that it's carried out underground and that it involves a high amount of energy, but still some others have declared it safe. The first beam of energy was launched today, with the second beam set to be launched in a month's time. Why this experiment is being carried out is so that scientists can see a particular which is called the Higgs boson, otherwise known as the "God-particle". My own personal take on this is that some scientists are using this experiment and playing God; trying to see for themselves that the existence of God can be proved by science and not by His wonders. I've included the following video.

YouTube: Did Nostradamus predict that the LHC will create a black hole?

I guess the best thing that we all can do is to pray. Pray that something goes wrong during this launch of the first beam, and that the scientists will be forced to discontinue with this experiment. I ask you to pray not for yourself, but for the conservation of this earth that God so lovingly created for us 2000 years ago. Please pass this on.

Regards'

This is entirely tosh. The LHC will create a black hole? The faintest beginnings of any putative threat to our planet's existence were immediately squashed by an entire panel of experts who are, I like to think, rather more qualified on the matters of theoretical physics than anybody who believes that the earth was created 2000 years ago. Get out much? Either you tell me you're scientifically credible OR you tell me you're a new earth creationist. Can't have your cake an eat it.

Okay nevermind that, let's leave aside the wrongheaded scientific fear-mongering and get to the religious manipulation. God-particle? Yes, the nobel guy did say that. It was because the Higgs Boson will be, if discovered, the cornerstone of an entire theory of gravity. That doesn't give anybody any leeway Whatsoever to claim some sort of hokum spiritual thingum that scientists are trying (once again) to prove whether God does or does not exists and hence bringing down Eternal Damnation on our poor misguided heads. Obviously a ploy to manipulate the ignorant, of which there are a Frightful Lot.

Please. Hoaxes are funny. Fucking about with religion, and especially your own brand of rather loopy creationism, is not so funny. Do not spread this email.

adam








Saturday, September 6

notable songs

Just to remind myself.

John Coltrane - Giant Steps
The only way I can describe this is elemental. Coltrane's playing is prismatic, joyous, beautiful, fiery. I have never been tired of this piece.

Sonic Youth - Turquoise Boy
The crowning achievement of the album Rather Ripped - solidly and beautifully written. Rather Ripped showcased the very loud band's capacity for restraint, and this song shows that restraint put to rather good use, I think - everyone keeps to a simple beat and simple lines, to brilliant effect.

U2 - Kite
Opinions on the album this came from are mixed. I think this one's a success though. Simple, if a bit sentimental, but hey it's U2 and Bono can pull it off.

Arcade Fire - In The Backseat
The arrangement and the lyrics are impressive. Rather than fall to a guns-n-roses smashy crash fest (which a lesser band would totally have done) the climax actually gets quieter at its peak, invoking the melancholy of a funeral procession. A fitting end to the album.

Hole - Teenage Whore
Teenage angst dissected with canny perceptiveness by whore queen Courtney Love. 'I said I feel so alone and I wish I could die'

Husker Du - Pink Turns To Blue
Probably about Bob Mould's homosexuality. But scathingly written, depressing urban wasteland at its best. Husker Du always turned out good melodies, which distinguished them from a lot of hardcore bands.

adam


Friday, September 5

Courtney Love saved my soul.

I guess only a particularly nasty day at SISPEC, having run 10km in the hot sun, would leave me lying half-naked on my bunk wondering about the various natures of destruction. It also led me to a pretty cathartic appreciation of Hole's two albums - Live Through This and Celebrity Skin.

Live Through This as I've mentioned is largely about blowjobs, although obliquely so, and with far more gravity than my glib post would have suggest. It is a record held together mostly by Courtney Love's incoherent rage and self-loathing, and bits of less-than-proficient guitar noise (Kurt Cobain wrote better music, but Love is at least his equal at singing...). At least one song was definitely written by Cobain himself ("Plump"), and is also about blowjobs. 'Hold you close like we both died/My ever present suicide/My stupid fuck, my blushing bride, oh tear my heart out'.

If Live Through This is constructed on rage, Celebrity Skin is made out of a comparably almost clinical destruction (I don't dare say 'deconstruction' - this might be mistaken for a book review.) Sure, the subject matter is blah blah humdrum Hollywood bitchin' but the real showcase is Courtney Love herself : she wields her rock queen/whore punk persona like a scalpel, crashing through a seething pop ditty like 'Awful' with all the ditz of the REAL dumb-blond-sellouts, but twenty thousand times the intelligence. When she's sincere, it works too - check out 'Malibu'. 'When I wake up, in my make-up, it's too early for that dress.'

adam

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