So CTs were bad.

Somehow I wish I cared more about them. My studies are in shambles, but I don't think i'm quite agitated enough to do anything about them. Siggghhhh... It seems like everyone else has been shocked into a state of frantic mugging.

The last few days have ground my willpower down completely. I think i'm caught in a self-destructive cycle... when I can't find energy to do anything else, I practice. It cleans the soul, I think. When I practice, I have even less energy to do anything else. Net result : homework suffers.
Is it better to have a clean soul and be a failure at life?

adam